New Horizons

Was it a spank on my head, a wake up call?? Whatever it was, its making me think. What do I want to do in life. Where do I want to be 5 years from now? 5 years back, I wanted to "settle down". But now it doesn't feel like a thing of utmost importance. I want to do something, be someone, someone big. Coding is certainly something I won't want to do for the rest of my life.

A certain someone who has made it big has told me that I have it in me. A certain someone who knows me very well has always told me that I have always had it in me. And as a matter of fact, I know that if I want to do something, I will work hard enough to get it,and that something can be anything. Not many people have this ability. So is it worth wasting it just because I am too lazy to explore..

As far as work goes, its interesting, but its getting frustrating. I want my views to be considered and appreciated. If thats not going to be happen, it should be well justified. "Thats how Big Boss XYZ wants it" is not a reason enough. This sort of tyranny is something that I certainly cannot tolerate. Slowly but surely I am getting the feeling of not being able to work under someone. And with this keeda in my head, every small thing obstruction in my work seems magnified. The worst part is that it is seen in the way I am behaving, the way I am handling things. I can sense people feeling uncomfortable in approaching me. And that sure is not a good sign.

Where do I go from here... MBA obviously seems to be a lucrative option. I certainly wont be going for CAT. That leaves me with GMAT and thus MBA abroad or in ISB. Giving it a shot this year is out of question. I need my time. Don't want to do things in haste. How am I going to manage finances. I don't know. How am I going to convince my parents, I don't know. What is going to happen to my so called "well planned" life, I don't know. This decision can very well change how my life is going to shape up. I think it deserves more thinking.

P.S. Watch out this space for more frequent updates...