Everything is in a mess. Why the bloody things are going wrong. I feel so helpless. I want to do something, but I feel my both hands are tied and somebody is trying to strangle me. I am trying to move, but just can't. I am suffocating. Feel like someone is stabbing in my heart and I am struggling to breath. Everything in my stomach is going for a spin and I feel like throwing up. Feel like grabbing whatever I can and throwing it away. I want to go to the beach, face the ocean and scream at top of my lungs. May be someone will be able to hear me.

It is upto me to write the rest of my story. They have been writing it for me. Now it has to be my turn. This is my fucking life. Why should anyone else have a say in it. Even if I want to screw it, its my personal choice. Is it really too difficult to understand??

I feel I am getting sick. I am just afraid of the day when I will succumb to the pressure and lose everything I ever had. This all just sucks. I need a change. I want to run away, from everything, from myself. I want to be alone. Lost and confused, I don't know who I am anymore.

Fuck this world. Fuck everything.

Crazy little thing called Harry Potter

Dunno why... I am getting bonkers behind Mr. Potter these days. So much so that I am reading an e-book, in spite of knowing the fact that I get unbearable headache when I read from comp for longer duration. Haven't read all the books. Feel its a good time to get them now. It was sad to see many things twisted, turned and wrongly put in the movie just for the sake of cutting it down to 2 and 1/2 hours

Harry Potter is no more about happy feelings though. Its darker and grimmer... There is more anger, fear and a whole bunch of negative feelings. But still, conceptwise, it rocks man. The kind of vision Rowling had, when she started writing the first novel of the series, very few people have... Just for an instance, all that was mentioned about Sirius Black in book 1 was the motor cycle, no mention in book2, and then there was a whole story in book 3. Same with Tom Riddle's diary playing a horcrux. Hats off to the thinking!

People actually have a petition to save a novel character. I think that says a lot...

Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if only one remembers to turn on the light.
- Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, spoken by Albus Dumbledore

One and a half year of being together

One and a half years down. So far so good...
So what we are on different part of planet, its not about being at the same place, its about being there. At least we know there is someone who will be there no matter what, someone who cares. Some people don't even have someone to be with. Worst, they want to be with someone, but that someone doesn't want to be with them. Its really bad to take some ones case and then extrapolate with that frame of reference, but what the hell... as long as I feel good, it doesn't matter!

There were moments that made us cry with laughter and cry with pain. Moments, that make me wonder, if that was really me at that point of time. This one year of distance has made me realize that being in love doesn't have to be so much a straight line as a series of ups and downs. In a course of a few days, we will again be at the same place. Its gonna be a new phase. We have always been so different. But what the hell, We need not think alike to love alike.

People say its the charm which will vanish in no time. But guess what, its one and a half year and its still there. If it had to go, it would have been gone by now. So i believe it is there to stay... for long....

I love you
Not only for what you are
But for what I am
When I am with you
- Roy Croft

Nature is beautiful... isn't it..

The Bias River


The Great Himalayas

Nostalgia

Went to college today... after almost one year... but frankly wasn't really nostalgic. Its not about the building and the classroom, its about the people in it. I feel nostalgic when we are together, for dinners or on a picnic.

Its really weird on the other side of the table, though was feeling amazing in front of bunch of students looking up to you. Sad to see people dejected after not being shortlisted. But thats how it goes. I think there is a tad bit of luck too.

Really sad to see the plight of the college. Nobody to the labs. It seems after Dude's departure, and our batch passing out, there is no one to maintain the labs. Basically, it is really hard to find good networking guys. And if they are good, they won't really want to work in some college for sure.

I think making it a casino was a very good idea... lol

Who wants to live with one foot in hell just for the sake of nostalgia? Our time is forever now!
- Alice Childress

Longest match in Wimbledon

After 102 games, 4 days, 5 hours and 58 mins,
Marcelo Melo/Andre Sa bt Paul Hanley/Kevin Ulleytte 7-5, 6-7 (4-7), 6-4, 6-7 (7-9), 28-26
Unbelievable!!
I think all four are winners, but sadly, only two qualify for the next round.