Complaints and Grievances

I feel so frustrated and irritated these days man... especially after coming back at home. Office is one place where I get peace of my mind, only because there is so much of work that there is hardly any time to think about yourself, emotions etc. These days I dread the weekends, they almost kill me. Its more like, shit... one more is here. What to do with this one now.

I am just mad at myself for some reason that I am not aware of. There are so many things in my head, that I can't point at one you know. It tends to make me sick. I was never so lost... ever. And yes, nobody should get this from me as I don't want to be cribbing bitch again. So as I cut-pasted this from my gmail compose textbox to blogspot compose textbox, I realize that I have nothing to write in the mail, which anyways has been a frequent case these days. Blogger is certainly not responsible for that. Or is it? As long as I get to pen down my feelings without being bothered about how someone will feel after knowing them, I don't see why should anyone have problems with it.

Coming back to the ranting, I cant remember one day when I was simply feeling happy or had a really good laugh. Happy times seem like a thing in the past. Everything is dark, grim, gloomy... as if the dementors are approaching, to suck my soul out. I am waiting for a day when the clouds will fade away. There will be a little drizzle, shining sun and a rainbow on the opposite side, looking at me and smiling, and I will smile back, feeling happy.